it's a huge step. i've talked to a few close friends about it. some understand and are really encouraging, equipping me with the confidence and courage i could not find within myself. for that, thank you so much. you know who you are. all of yous. :)
others, are well, less receptive.. more skeptical. but i must not blame them. they never saw it coming, hell
I never saw it coming myself. i've always been viewed in this one light, and it's hard to take Me out of that spotlight and put Me on a different stage. it's something that is hard for even myself to grapple with, so how can i expect others to?
but like one of you said, because of the Me that I am, whichever stage you put Me on, i will strive for the best. and god willing, i will succeed.
insya'allah :)
it's a long winding path that stretches deep into the dark unknown, it's a big bad scary world out there. but like one of you said, it's time to grow up and be that adult you are meant to be. (ok so maybe i added more words.)
tonight, my mother told me she
sujud syukur and gave thanks. indeed, all that this household is suddenly receiving, comes with His blessing. and because i know that what i am being offered is not one of my mother's favourite options, to know that she has given it fair thought, that she has acknowledged it, that she is grateful for it.. means a lot. i've never liked doing something without my parents' blessings.
i'm slowly getting through to them, and with time i hope, they trust that i have thought it through and that i'm making a fair decision.
there's so many other people i wish i could talk to. i've received comments and opinions of peers, people like myself, people eager for the experiences of the working world.. but i would surely gain more confidence in making my decisions if i could just.. get the opinions of experienced and seasoned individuals.
they haven't given me much time though. i have to return a reply by May 2nd.
and between now and then, i have two exams. bahh, exams.
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