Tuesday, March 29 | 5:03 pm

ran back to de refuge of my home. der is no place like home trust me. cut ss lectr. its su-ed aftr all. ;) morning i cut tutrl toO. ahak. cant b bothrd lah. not like de ta *teaching assistant* is any good anw. kay fine to her credit she is sumwat intelligible. if yu listen real hard n try real hard. no make dat if yu imagine real hard. hah.

aiight got to get my gem project undrway. :\ such a draaaaaggg. :( *waaiils* feeling whiny.

on a happier note. iv got it underway toO! :) so exciitiing! been a looong time since i last did sthg like dat. sad huh. :/ but niwes. got de box n spray paintd it black. got silvr paint too. :) shal whip up sthg real neat. ;) *neat? who says neat anymore? sheesh yani.* hMm hvta go down mall to get dat too. darn. wen can i go man. hMmm. yayy! :)

okay shal be good girl n do wat i shd be doing n wat i need to do. *smiles*
seeyUu!

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Monday, March 28 | 11:51 pm

yes its seven min to midnyt n here i m seatd outside lt14 at as6. nus hostelite. or so i think. hehehe spent de last couple of hrs alternating betwn desperate housewives and stats. managd get bit of my cheat sheet done n im rathr screwd btw bcos im so hard up for time. eergh. i hate dis feeling. god gimme more time let der be more days more hours a day. but owel if der were id probly slack more of it away. siigh. discipline girl discipline.

k dis is more for my own benefit den for anybody else's.
tO dO dis week.
tuesday wen ayah picks me up - get academic transcript from registrar's office.
tuesday wen reach home - take passportsizd photo.
tuesday nyt - tuition. gem project.
wednesday morning - hand in duo-exchange application. read microbio.
wednesday aftrnoon evening - stats. cheat sheet n revision.
thursday morning - microbio.
thursday aftrnoon - stats refresh b4 test.
thursday evening - miss congeniality 2 :)
friday morning - microbio.
friday evening - get it ready.
sat morning - gem project/chinese speech.
sat evening - parade.
sunday - gem project/chinese speech + tutrls.

i gues de whole of next week wil be dedicated to gem. finishing up project n studying for test. totali lost for dis second half lectrs. sheeeet man. help.

aftr which wil be de thirteenth of april. which makes it eight days away frm my firs finals. eergh. its coming in. i feel it. i feel it. during these eight days i hv to read up my biodee which iv totali left stagnant since like de third week of semester. den ders chinese de day aftr biodee. n as we all know if yu dun practice a language yu lose it. eergh. esp w charactrs n phrases. requires constant revision. eergh.

im abt to blow. jus watch.

shd be making a move back to room soon. syahirah opposite me aisyah next to me. syahirah falling asleep all ovr her notes. aisyah totali lethargic. god let us get back safely. we hv a long hike back. a hike of hills n slopes, stairs n steps, not to menton heavy bags of thick stacks of notes n laptops, worth a grand total of twenty min. thank god im not wearing heels. lets jus say once bitten twice shy. wil go straight to bed once i get back. help.

its onli monday.
see de above list?
i hv a lOoOng week ahead of me.

help.

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| 7:04 pm

hehehe ryt now in central lib discussion rm purple!! wheee! rocks my soOcks can play music talk n laugh like nobody's business. :) iv been in discussion room dark green, lime green, yellow and red. :) n i think my favorite is yellow! its so hapi n briight. :D

anw had loads to say but lost all inspiratn. shal get back to stats. yes my life revolves ard mugging. at least during weekdays. bite me.

toodles.

ps. its all suhaila's fault. her smelly ass walkd in. n i lost all inspiration. unlike syahirah. who is nice. cos im using her laptop. :)

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| 12:16 am

I just want you to know... that
Through out it all
It's only you
That stuck by me
And for that...
I thank you, I love you
Ashanti

OoOo I can't wait to get next to you
Oooh I just can't leave you alone
Boy you got me doin' thangs
That I would neva do
And I can't stop the way
I'm feelin' if I wanted to
I'm crazy bout the way
That you could make me say your name
And if I couldn't have you
I would probably go insane cause

chorus
Only you can make me feel
(Only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there)
And only you can me feel
(Only you, only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there)

OoOo I can't wait to get next to you
Oohh I just can't leave you alone
Boy you stay inside my mind
Ain't no denyin' that
And only you could do them things
That got me comin' back
It's gotta be the realest thing
That I have ever felt
And I'll do what I gotta do
To keep you to myself cause

Only you can make me feel
(Only you can make me feel yeah)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there yeah)
And only you can me feel
(Only you can make me feel yeah)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there)

bridge
Crazy (baby)
'bout the ('bout the)
way you
(Make me) feel
I just (got to)
gotta
have you (have you)
here
And I (and I)
wanna (wanna)
letchu (let you)
know
(I) I won't
(I won't) eva
(Ever)let you
(Let you)go

Only you can make me feel
(Only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there yeah)
And only you can me feel
(You can make me feel)
And only you can take me there
(Only you can take me there)

OoOo I can't wait to get next to you
Oohh I just can't leave you alone

- Only You, Ashanti

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Sunday, March 27 | 10:20 pm

ergh. 30char. die man.
anw not going back pgp tonyt. time used to pack get ready travel go back bettr spent on chinese! thirty is tOO much man. anw i jus realisd how bloody screwd my next couple of weeks r. too many thgs rushing in. eeks. pray i live thru. :(

i want my angel.

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| 1:31 pm

put de rest of yest's pictrs up here :) go see.
boriing dayy. tuition all morning all day.
chinese tutrls of 30 characters worth.
owel.
toodles.

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| 1:55 am

jus got back frm a day of nuthing but shOppiiing! :) dint do much but shop. in fact dint do anythg else. hehee :)

k so purchases goes as follows..
* two pairs of freshlook colorblends at $69 plus one free pair of freshlook radiance *wat a bargaaiiN!!*
* pirated ps2 gran turismo 4
* my preetttyyyy white daniel yan princess skirt *smiles proudly*
* his oh-so-hot long sleevd n singlet frm topman
* dis purrfeect mens longsleevd shirt frm raoul
* za compact
* revlon illuminator powder *yes nydia i got it!! :)*
* car magazine ;)
* 2m of white satin ;)

yesyes hehe was temptd to get shoes toO but owel. anws i took loadsa shots of my angel wen he tried on clothes at topman n raoul! :) oOoh! steaaaaming hoTT i tell yu. ;)

we dinnrd at fish n co and as usual struggld to clear our plates. :P hehe took many shots here toO. :)

on de way back angel told me sthg he was feeling n dat was reassuring :) thankful for dat.

wat jus worries me is time. or lack thereof. :( pretty soon il be leaving on exchange. and.. :( *huug* i love you.

i had a great time w angel today :) he's jus abt perfect. ;)

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| 1:54 am


car shot. angel sleeeeppyy :(

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| 1:54 am


dinnr. :) check out huuuge jungle freeeze.

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| 1:48 am


smiles all ard now! :)

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| 1:44 am


my favourite at raoul :)

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| 1:43 am


topman take three! navy blue vneck.

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| 1:42 am


topman take 2! simple black roundneck :)

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| 1:41 am


topman's dummy was wearing it. thot itd be interesting to see how itd look like on him :)

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Saturday, March 26 | 1:15 pm

hahahahhahaha okaay i put like evrythg possible on my blog. went to kutipkutip lil titbits frm blogskins i found at blogskins *no i dun curik frm my own frens' blogs okay* and put dem on mine! *griiin* hahahha okaay so now mayb ders an ovrload but wen i get bored of dem il take em down okay. :) hehe but all vry subtle waaat. so shdnt b a problem. :D at least in MY books. hehehe

yes. ball shopping not exactly going as plannd. :P my vry sweet fren say if i wanna go w my own fren den its okay she say she dun go.. so i askd a fren n de fren say okay :) budden she got problem w her boyfren lah. :( so no go. so think wil hvta go w angel himself. budden angel say yu duwan surprise me on de nyt itself ke.. :( bOo.

yes so my sat morning began w stats. hee. :P budden again my morning dun exactly qualify as morningmorning as in before noon kinda morning. its wen-i-wake-up kinda morning. :D hehehhe okay its okay if yu dint undrstd dat. but if yu do. ahah! yu do it toO!!

okays so angel coming bout three pm. :) in de meantime. away we stats! byebye!

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Friday, March 25 | 9:05 pm

jus got back frm expo. one of my fave places to study. de coffee bean plays good music n der r enuf distractions to keep me frm getting bored w my work. :) did a fair amt todayy. a few tutrls in revision for my stats test. :)

plannd to meet at eleven but wel. yu know. understand understand onli lah ah. *read pahampaham ajer lah eh* drove to expo but daddy had to drive back. :( need car for friday prayers. i want car! now! somebody buy for me. pls?

so met shiq at like a bit past noon. had metro sale going on! :) hehe how to resist ryt. ;) walkwalk nothin much cept shoes. but not shopping mood. tried a bit waah prettypretty but naah nvr buy. saw ugly bags n ugly clothes. uhhuh so left for coffee bean.

shiqin bought bk while i dint. no appetite. think its de cramps. had my yummy chicago cheesekek! :) n mocha ice blended. uhhuh. so aftr nice mandatory chatchat settld down to work. ;) w chitchat breaks lah. i mean kalau tak il get bored w my work. :P hehe yeaaa did a fair bit.

den angel came! :) hehe angel alws comes n brings me food. :) at pgp also yu know. yesh. got ol chang kee yummy squidballs crabthingies n springroll. mMmM! :) so we ate n we talkd. ;) hehe three of us had a rathr interesting chat. hehe ;) n he suggestd going double tmro! yaayy! :) hehe picnic or sthg. wheee!!

uhhuh uhhuh. so den angel dropd shiqin at mrt n drove me home. :) n n on de way back angel told me he actuali went loyang point n tampines mall n century sq to look for flowers for me! :) OoOh! :) but at loyang pt closed n at century sq de florist closd down alredi. bOo. so he bought ol chang kee. ;) but all de same! he wantd to get me flowers! oOoOh! :) *warm fuzzy feeliiiiing* mMmMm! :) *blissbliss* yaayy! :)

uhhuh uhhuh so im like going ball shopping tmro!! :) hehe and and seeing shiqin darling like threeeee days in a roww! hehe ;) not dat its anythg bad. ;) hehe wheeee~* :)

yaayyyy all in all if yu cant alredi teeeellllll..
goOoOoOoOoOooOoOoOoooOoOd day :)
now back to more stats. :) which i totali dun mind eithr.
toOdles~*!

i lOoOove being hapi. :)
thank yu for making me dis hapi. :) *huUug*

*dances off hapily*

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| 2:21 am

oh n yes. as yu can see. i made it a lil easier on de eyes. bigger n darker words.
enjoy! :)

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| 1:44 am

yayy! so as yu can see. i wastd my nyt doing dis. but its okay. cos im hapi now. n no longer scared to see my blog. hehe de last one gave me de shivers. dunno wat i was thinking wen i did it up. *shudders*

anw. had a totalii rocking nyt w shqiin! altho dat girl made it sound totali wrong. "bathe together sleep together" shiqin wat were yu thinkiing!!! :P hehe wat she meant was we went to bathe at de same time in separate cubicles passing shampoo n soap over de top n talking while showering. der. sounds better. ryt shiqin? hehe and we shared my tiny single bed cos wel it dint look like she was planning to sleep anw. so we slept like reali straight and each were falling off her own end. i am not a bed hogger okaay shiqiin!! i was falling off too!! yerps. yea b4 dat in day we were mugging w nyd n shiq. since im fairly outdated for more details kindly visit deir blogs. :) yups we studied a fair amt b4 dinnering macs n getting snacks at georgies! :) somebody wantd so badly to watch ami but in de end we were more interestd in ourselves den simon cowell! or rob n amber *amazing race* for dat mattr. hehe we were sharing nvr b4 told secrets. :P *guilty* :) hehe shiiq!!! yu made me say it!! hahaha yerp. n not to mention how we were condemning someone for not calling! :( but dat someone had vry valid reason. so okaylah nmind. ;) hehe yerps. so den we experiencd a lil bump in de road. uhhuh. but somehow my fair ladies managd to iron out dat lil wrinkle. not wout a few hard fights though. but all in all im glad dat thgs were laid out on de table sorted thru n straightnd out. to avoid any further case of anyone getting anymore hurt den dey alredi are. :) i hv faith in yu girls *huugs* *huugs* one each :) n i know if yur intentions r true n yu uphold de faith dat comes w frenship :) thgs wil go wel. *huugg* we can onli try n see wer time takes us ryt? :) i may or may not be a passive bystander i dunno. but wat i am i do know. n i am yur fren. to both of yu. n nvr wud i trade eithr for anythg else anyone can offer. :) *hugg* i love yu n yu. :)

yay! so see my new skiN! i think de girl up der is jus jam. dun yu? :) hehe she was dressd rathr indecently yea so some censorship was duly requird. ;) hehe n der r supposd to be pink blinking hearts fluttering down yur screen! but sumhow it dusn show up on mine. but wen i preview frm my blogspot user acct it appears. ugh. technology. nvr can get it straight! but oh heck. nice huh? :) hehe

oh n meeeaaan ol shiqin nvr faild to remiind me thruout de nyt of how biiiig im getting. :( but she has volunteerd to oversee my exercise programme. so dat makes it a lil bit okaay lah. hehe *sheesh* hehe yesshh. but being de procrastinator *not to mention nerd* dat i m. my exercise programme wil start aftr exams. in de three mths of vacation. *crosses fingers. i hope i hope.* our conversation went sumwat like
shiq okok! yu hv to like workout evry day do barbells n run evryday!
yani *utterly surprised look* everyydaayy??? i was like thinking twice a week or sthg!!
shiq yani! no pain no gain!
yani darn.
looks like shiqin has a tough job ahead of her. *griin*

yeaa tmro got anothr date w my fitness instructor! haha expo to studyYy :) glad to see somebody's got her momentum. insyaallah dis term wil be loads bettr yea dear? yups so tmro iv got to attack stats b4 it attacks me next thurs!! aahh!! okaay lame. wel. i have a stats test on thurs so i hv to study. yea dats wat i meant. hehe

uhhuh n somebody got his sword alredii!!! *waaahh* awe. oOoh. :) hehe im so utterlyutterly proud of yu. :) yu hv no idea how much. all those times yu said no lah i cant.. i wun.. see? :) yu can and yu have. :) my superhero. :) *hug* i love you. :) wun yu love me too?

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Wednesday, March 23 | 4:02 am

my blog is quite a nytmare to read now. but since its 4:02am. il do it tmro okay.
zZzZz. :(
need it bad.

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Tuesday, March 22 | 11:33 pm

hMm had loads to sayy yestrday but got back so late was so tired so worn out jus went straight to bed. wout bathing. *ssh!!* but i washd my face n brushd my teeth! so not so bad lah ryyt? hehe


so anws yestrday got back my chinese midterm. siigh. i got a 96half outta hundred. whopping yu wud think. but unfortunately aint whopping enuf. :( so saad. in dis world of competition it aint abt how wel yu do. its abt how wel yu do compared to evryone else. so sad but true. n if yu want yur As dats wat yu gotta play by. out of a class of ahundred eightyone fiftyone losers got in de range of ninetyfive-hundred. thankyu all yu indonesian n msian chinese. eergh. technically dey dun hv prior chinese education bcos dey dun hv de certs to prove it. but cmon. we know bettr dun we. esp wen during class dey shoot out numerous words n phrases dat pple wout prior chinese education wud know. m i being sour? im jus stating facts! reali. yea so as i was collecting my script i saw a handful of ninetynines. how sad is dat. to quote syani

i hate all dis annoying pple who alredi know chinese but jus take dis bcos dey want dat A its unfair to pple like me who actuali want to learn de language but get so discouraged by dem wen i jus cannot score!

hMm darling it jus occurrd to me dat if yu reali wanna learn de lang de grade yu get for it shdnt matter ryt? yea i undrstand. in an ideal world maybe. if yu werent scrambling to increase yur cap yea maybe. heh. but owel. reality hits yer in de face.

oh so anw. abt my paper. so sad know. i lost three marks on de vry last page. ahaak. all bcos i decided to be a smartass n write suuch a cute story which i totali lost ctrl of wen i wrote one ONE little character wrongly. n de character i mixed it up w made such a drastic difference to it!! k lemme attempt at explaining it. my dialogue was abt these two frens talking n one guy wants to read a chinese book. instead of writing de character for yao meaning want, i wrote you meaning have. so it read i have a chinese book instead of i want a chinese book. n my next line his fren replied okay! so il give you my chinese book. so yu can see how dat totali dusn make any sense anymore! :( bOo. so my next two lines got penalised bcos it looked like i was talking crap! daarn. dat wil teach me to write simple next time n not attempt to play smart. *snort* but all de same im thankful. yes i m. :) i jus wish i had done bettr. okayokay il shut up now. hehe ;) suhaila says im a classic example of an overachiever. m i? hMm. i jus like doing wel. haha dusn it jus feel so good wen yu do? hehe okayokaay. bfore i convince de world of wat a total nerd i m i bettr stop. yea unlike yu all din alredi know. ;) ahaha. so wat. im not ashamed of it okaay. *griiin*


oh im currently hapi w de way i look! *griin* ahaha if yu'r starting to roll yur eyes alredi kindly get lost okay? hahaha :) i think how yu look has to do w how yu feel ;) yu feel goOd yu look it! haha plusplus de fact dat iv been getting loads more sleep now so all those nasty lil pimples hv fled my face! okaay so maybe not permanently but at least for de time being! :) hehe n im a sumwat happiii womaan so yea :) plusplus i like being fair ;) fairskind ones hv an advantage bcos deyr restrictd by lessr color clashses if any! ;) oh but i jus wish my face wudn be so fat. i mean reali. wen i look at photos my cheeks jus scream out FAT. :( reali. its like FAT is embossd on my cheeks man. so tembam. :( rozzie tells me she n shamir says its babyfaced. but at nineteen? dat aint a compliment! :( okaay so mayb my body isnt in de greatest of shapes. ahaak. far frm it. goOdness my belly like shakes w evry step i take! but at least iv got height to hide it. ;) haha dats anothr thg. i think height makes yu lOok bettr. ;) i mean if i werent tall id look reali fat. i mean think relative. im wide. like oOh yea im wiiiide. ahaak. so if yu compacted me lengthwise. can yu imagiine?? haha so i suppose if yu gotta be reeaaal sliiiiim if yu'r vertically challengd. oOps. hope i hvn offended anybody here. :) haha


oh i so desperately wanna go shoppiing!! pls plspls!! someone help meee!! im in diiire need of new clothes i jus reali need to lay my hands on those racks! i wanna get shoes like ladies shoes like ballet shoes but not reali. like mary janes but not reali. like those closedtoes flats. hehe whEeee! and and i need bOots!! :) like reaaal happening boots! aftrall i m going to hv to walk to school in de blistery autumn wind. ;) hehe yeshree!! oh oh n not to mention. i have to scout for de best bargains for dat ball! *grriiiin* yeaaa!


iv jus effectively wastd a tuesday nyt. supposed to hv tuition w three kids but two rescheduled. so onli one came n i was relatively free but did i diligently take out my work to do? nOo. watchd tv silly shows like police n thief bloggd n watchd csi n the practice. n now watching temptation island. wat silly kids dey have on dat show. *snort*


okaay so i gues iv yakked enuf. if yu'v reachd dis point of dis truly mindless brainless intellectualy unchallenging entry den yu rOck!! haha congraats! yu maade it! :)


okaay bye now! *waaves!*


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Sunday, March 20 | 8:36 pm

been a pretty eventful weekend i must say. glad to say got some stuf done. although wish cudv done more but den der r onli so many hours in a day. managed to work thru gem project. finali hv a bettr more solid more kick idea to work on. :) did my chinese. test tmrO! ss project finali getting out of de way thank god. yerps. dis week gotta hit dat biostats hard man. test coming. hvta ace it. want my A. :) biodee seems to be sinking further n further. eeks. siigh. wish i cud do sthg abt it but jus hv way tOo many thgs lined up. its okay. il get to it. i promise.

dis weekend wasnt onli studies. did wat iv been wanting to do n wat needed to be done dis weekend. proud dat i managed to work up de guts to do it. but cant say im particularly proud of de outcome. :( but think we'l pull thru. owel. dun hv much to say cept dat i messd up den sortd it out n am facing de consequences. yups.

anw! on a lightr note iv got a whoOpping mth lined up!! :) alws knew april was a wunderrrful mth othr den de vry obvious reasons y. ;) im not de onli one on dis okaay got soOo manyy. suhaila marlini sya jus to mention a few. ;) ders stil baoling annabella louisa jayme syha *ghosts frm my past* hehe. so anws. got excitiing parade to attend, ball to get all dressd up for *griin* whEeEee!

thg is tho. got tests n projects n possibly a report due dis few weeks. hehh. its okaay. iv slackd enuf dis sem. time to get crackiing girL! ;)

aiights seeyuu! think wil do bit of project n one last chinese runthru! :) lOove chinese btw. its abt de onli thg i do constantly. ;) owel. aftrall. i do hv roots der. sumwat i gues. ;)

byeEeE! *waves*

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Saturday, March 19 | 1:38 am

hahahha jus found dis hilarious. credit goes to muslim for showing me de site. n his fren who showd him de site.

anw if yu find it annoying jus press stop lah eh.

haha othrwise. enJoY! :D






came from here!

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Thursday, March 17 | 1:45 am


rendezvous!

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| 1:44 am


cak!

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| 1:43 am


sephia shot!

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| 1:43 am


my sephia shot!

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de mat salleh dat totali fell in love w us.

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| 1:42 am


wheeee!!

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| 1:40 am


pretty feet!

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| 1:23 am

hitch totali rOckd man. :) hardest i evr laughd at a movie. reali. usually i jus find dem waay toO lame and corny or jus not funny enuf. hitch totali won me over. :)

rather tired now so wun reali say much.

pretty much de usual girlfren activitiies. unsure of wat to do n wer to go aftr de show we kinda walkd ard aimlessly trying to decide on a place to go eat. hehh. we finaly settld for 7-11 but by den many had to leave alredi. some of dem girlfrens had starbucks while me aisyah n farah had our lil rendezvous. ;) hehe yups. finali cabbd back w aisyah n farah to de west. a temporary westie. ;)

pictr-teasers. de rest at
my lovely page :)

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Wednesday, March 16 | 9:32 am

here i m sitting at sci library cblc *computer based learning centre* trying to print lectr notes. but r der any? no. nonono. siigh. sometimes these lectrers ah. tak boleh harap man. lectr's in half an hr. wer r de notes? duNNo. dun haave. and yes i could n i should be using my time to read up my stuf. which is growing at an inhuman pace. *hmm but deyr not human r dey so its okay for dem to grow at an inhuman pace.* okaay so deyre growing at a cosmic pace. but naah its okay. felt like blogging crap. anws i jus realisd dat i dunno why de cblc is calld cblc. i mean wad do dey mean by computer based learning centre? okaay i get de computers part. we come here to use de terminals. but de learning part? we come here to learn? frm de name it sounds like a learning centre which is computer based. but we dun come here to learn. hMm. anw its a waste of my time thinking abt dat so yea.

i hv also realisd dat girls like to talk abt hair n wat dey eat n how guilty dey feel abt it. nydia told us abt her wunderful kenduri fest. sha was telling us abt her hotdogs n her chicken sticks n watnot. nydia also told us abt her prettypretty haircut n shiqin wants to go for hair therapy. in my last couple of entries iv been whining n complaining abt my food intake n hair mess. hMm.

giirlfren mOvie date today! *biiiigsmiile* tonyt 0725pm show at lido. yesh. n according to mars n elly we'l be at royal plaza on scotts by 0630pm to asar/maghrib n makeupmakeup. den i said
azan jer sembahyang macam kilat pastu kiter lari!! *pause* eh?
no. reali. no kidding. ;) ahaak. maghrib is at like 0717pm yea? hahaha dat shd be funny. ;)

anws iv been wonderiing wen results of jae wil b out. exciitiing!! :)

okaays 0945pm now. going to go toilet adjust tudung *customary!* n den hoof it down to lt32 which is terperuk kat hujung dunia. located one corner nevermind yu know. to get to dat godforbidden corner must cliiimb bukit! n den stil not enuf. must climb like five annoying flight of stairs. if i dint eat like a pig evrytime i eat, id hv my hott bod by now. i mean its a serious cardio workout! whOopsie. now im running late! gotta go! tOodles! :)

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| 2:44 am

siigh. im working on dis essay for duo-exchange fellowship award which is some sort of funding for my sep. a thousand euros a mth. n of course w evry application comes de essay. dis one goes like dis
In a separate attachment, write a short essay of not more than 500 words about your interest in this award. Please note that the essay is an important part of your application.
great. my firs response? shOw me dE mOneY! no reali. i mean four thousand euros wil definitely help. im going der on my savings. *eeks* no kidding. and how dyu tell dem yu want deir money? dis thg is no strings attachd. cant say i wud love to be a part of deir organisation wen i come back can i? plus its MFA not jus any organisation. *eekseeks*

ok so iv startd. managd to whip up sOme stuf. now mentioning all de thgs i wanna do der. like take part in research programmes n cocurricular activities n such. so went to king's website to see wat dey hv. n oh great! de site refuses to divulge anythg! ders nothing up der cept academic courses dat yu can take! im beginning to wonder if all dey evr do is study. great.

n now my hair is giving me a headache. giant evil monstrous headache. :( my hair's getting waayyy too heavy for my head to taake. :( budden wen let down hot! we live in singapore aftrall okaay. :( bun up tie up heavy like anythg. plus my hairline insists on receding even furthr! im going to look like those silly chinese men in de past w nothing on de front of deir head but hv a reaali loong pigtail running down deir backs. eeks. siigh. been wanting to get dat short like real short chic haircut for mths now. but my curls rnt letting me. i love my long hair. altho de curls can be quite a nytmare w tangles n dandruff n all. i stil love de length. bOo. but i want dat short light cut toO. stops b4 de shouldrs n layerd. sorta like a long bob. ;) had dat one b4 n loved it. back in jc. hMm. howhow. wats a giirl to do. :(

oh btw hvta thank my online grammar n vocab check! syahidah! thankiuu baabe! yu know how essays n i are. sorta like kuih lapis and sambal belacan.

okies. back to me essayy. shal buLL n forget abt reali looking up a cca. ahaak. aftrall its kings. ders bound to be research projects going on ryt? ryt? ryt. :)

bye alL! hope yu'r hving lovelyy sleep! :)

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Tuesday, March 15 | 2:44 pm

total wreck. blew all classes today. cudn sleep last nyt. racked by sobs all nyt. cudnt wake up dis morning. blew tutrl. finali woke up later on. gave mummy a call cos she was jus so worried. dint return her calls last nyt. :( so gave her a call told her im fine. checkd my phone read msgs. drownd in tears again. lay in bed not wanting to get out. fell back to sleep. in n out of sleep alternating w weeping. finali back startd to ache frm lying ard too much. so decided to go down to get foOd. *wen in despair stuf yur face. regret it onli later* was way past lunchtime so not dat many pple at canteen. wasnt reali hungry. but got nasi putih w kuah lemak n ayam masak merah n telur mata lembu n sayur kacang panjang anw. *regret setting in* not enuf. so went to get two donuts. choc coverd w d colourd rice-icing toping. n marble icing swirl donut. yummy i thot. den. *regretregret* got yummy guava drink toO. went back up to room. yumyum i thot. sat down to eat. *regretregretregret* so ate n ate. my ayam n my kacang panjang. finali got ovr dat. den moved on to my yummy donuts. pace slowd down considerably. munchmunch chompchomp. buurp. cudn finish lah. :( ate only de yummy parts coverd w yummy icing. toO bad. :( so its like three now n i hv yet to get past wallowing in misery n to get a grip. so much work to do. screwd over. so much for highr cap. hell. wat a semester. why did i meet men? why cudn i hv stayd a total nerd whu dint know those creatures exist.

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| 12:43 am

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

- White Flag, Dido

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| 12:30 am

im jus tired.
i know it seems like too soon for me to be tired.
n i dunno why its getting to me so much.
it jus is.
yu know me
yu know i dun like uncertainty
yu know how april to november year two thousand was a total nytmare for me
pls dun make me relive dat nytmare
pls dun.

yu tell me now
i hope yu put things in perspective n undrstand how i must'v felt for four mths
pls dun think i had it easy these past four mths
bcos i sure as hell didnt.
tearing myself up inside
confusion settled in only to stay permanently
depression came n went as it pleased
so pls dun think
i had great joy bringing yu misery
bcos i didnt.

im jus so tired now
n i blow up often
a tad too often for yur tastes
but i jus dun deal w emotions well
i dun handle these thgs well
at all
so forgive me.

forgive me bcos all i want
is to have yu back
yu n yur love
but maybe
jus maybe
dat is more den i deserve
n i onli hv myself to blame
nobody but myself
as has been these past four mths.

im jus so tired
i wanna crawl into bed
n allow de tears to flow
let der be no more gates
bcos iv expended all energy
keeping those gates up
these past four months
n i cant any longer.

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Saturday, March 12 | 11:00 pm

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love,
I oh I need your love
God speed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me
I'll be coming home, wait for me

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love,
I oh I need your love
God speed your love to me

- Unchained Melody, Righteous Brothers

*yes im stil yurs*
*n i need yur love too*
*come home soon*
*im waiting for yu*

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| 10:05 pm

was jus looking thru some of my pictrs.
many of happy girlfren times.
i want those times back.
n now.
girlfrens i need yu.

call me selfish.
but sometyms im jus sick of listening to yur sob stories
iv told yu umpteen times.
yu jus refuse to listen.
yu go back n forth on de whole issue
pls girl
like we'v alws said
i know best n im alws ryt.
i know we kid wen we say dat
but pls
dun do dis to yurself

but yu know wat makes me even more sick?
de fact dat yu r falling
n im watching
n i cant do anythg abt it
no mattr how hard i try
all i can do is watch

n dun think i dunno
aftr yu read dis entry
yu'l not tell me
anythg else dat happens
jus so dat
i wun worry n i wun go crazy
but yu know dat il know
dat thgs r happening
n yu jus dun wanna tell me abt it
ergh

pls girl
dun do dis to urself
iv seen it happn way too many times
n its jus sick
girl
pls.

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| 10:03 pm

ignore de earlier post ok.

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| 9:00 pm

i cant believe im actuali listening to dis bull.
no reali.
call it denial or watevr yu want.
but i hv my head atop my shoulders.
n reali.
it sounds like nothing but buLL.
who didyu meet again?
sorry
how dyu spell d-e-n-i-a-l again?
oh yea dats how.
ahakk.

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| 1:30 pm

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been livin in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe

Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breathe can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need toooo praayy!

- Left Outside Alone, Anastacia

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Friday, March 11 | 9:51 pm

I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up

- Tangled, Maroon 5

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| 9:13 pm

i jus feel like fuck now
n i dunno wat to tell yu
each n evry one of yu
all of yu
i dunno wer to start
wat to say
how to say it
wen im told i cant say it
how do i handle feeling like fuck
tell me
how dyu expect me to be able to handle dis
yu know how i m
how iv been
how iv alws been
iv alws needed my frens
needed my girlfrens
needed to tell dem
to lean on dem
cant yu see dat?
cant yu see how badly i need dem?
cant yu see how worried dey r for me?
so all i can tell all of yu now
is dat im sorry
n dat il be fine
dun yu worry abt me
de next tym yu see me
il hv a big smile on my face
like how i alws do
no clue of wats reali going on inside
until yu get here
so jus let me be
n dun ask
cos i wun be able to answer
jus know dat
il be fine
somehow.

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| 5:58 am

today
for de first time in mths
i shed tears
for yu
not bcos of yu
but for yu

why
why dammit why
why didyu do it
hv yu forgotten wat i said way back
or did it jus not mattr anymore

dun yu tell me
it was to help yu forget abt me
to not think abt me
cos i know yu
n yu wont succumb to dat
yu did it to spite me didnt yu

all of a sudden i dun wanna talk to yu anymore
i meant wat i said
if yu remember wat i said
den yu'l know wat i mean
n yu'l understand

yu hv jus complicated thgs
a lot more
n dun blame me now
if i run
cos honestly
dats jus wat i wanna do
run from yu.

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| 4:43 am

pls understand
i'm only doing this
to keep myself from getting hurt
she tells me dun let yur pride get in de way
but iv swallowd my pride for yu b4
n lets jus say
once bitten twice shy
anothr tells me it's jus his pride
i know i deserve this
aftr wat i'v done to yu
but dat dun mean i shd beat myself up ovr it does it?
i told a fren
i dun wanna hope n expect
bcos shd thgs not happen
im only setting myself up
i dun wanna make myself all vulnerable
it's wat dey call insurance
he says he understands
so i hope yu do too


btw world
it's jus not ryt for yu not to be togethr!
if yu guys break up wat's gonna happen to me??
it's reali alryt

if we r not togethr
life stil goes on
he says de world dusn like change
but i'm sorry
thgs myt jus change
for good

and yu
dun blame her for being my fren
she has a ryt to whuevr she wants in her life
in fact blame yurself
blame yurself n think abt why
why yu'r not alws der for her
dun blame her for opening up to me
in fact blame yurself
blame yurself n think abt why
why she opend up to me n to othrs instead of to yu
dun blame her for wat i know
in fact blame yurself for wat yu do

wat yu do n why othrs talk
yea yu r entitld to watevr yu wanna do
jus like how we r entitld to our own opinion
bottomline
dun blame her
blame yurself
no
in fact blame me
take it out w me n not w her
i blame myself n i feel like crap
knowing dat it cudv been bcos of me
dat she is now put in dis position
i'm sori my dear
i reali dint mean for it to happn
i know dat she is stil yur fren
n knowing dat i cudv possibly come in de way
its jus not ryt
she was yur fren b4 yu were mine
forgive me
n hang in der aiight?
true frenship
wil alws prevail
jus remembr
i wil stil n alws
love yu

it sucks dat i hv to do dis lil disclaimer
but i know der wil be pple who misundrstand n misinterpret
im not out for malaise
nor m i out for controversy
i jus like to say wat i feel
dey call it expressive
so pls dun misundrstand dis entry
dis aftrall
my blog
so get a grip n get on w life.

btw phone jus beepd
a surprising msg
n even more surprising
was de firs name out of my mouth
in dat moment of confusion
despair n helplessness
i had no idea
he was dat much of a fren to me
or dat he cud be dat much of one
i gues yu r a bettr fren den i thot yu were
forgive me for underestimating yu
n thank yu
for yur true care n concern
i truly appreciate it
n i promise
i shal carry on
w my campaign ;)
ahaak
hang in der.

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Wednesday, March 9 | 9:12 am

He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note
That said "use these down to your bones"
And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him
I thought "this one knows better than I do"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

So the next one came with a bag of treats,
she smelled like sugar and spoke like the sea
And she told me don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one, looked at my insides clicking her tongue
and said "This will all have to come undone"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
She tried to cut me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?


I think I realized just in time, although my old self was hard to find
You can bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?
And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?


- Scar, Missy Higgins

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| 8:41 am

if yu dun talk to me
i wun talk to yu

if yu dun make de firs move
nothing wil happen
cos i sure as hell wun make de firs move

im stubborn
jus as yu r

wel too bad den

jus dat i hate not knowing
guessing n wondering

jus like how i hate
being kept waiting

dun make me wait too long now
cos i dunno how long il be here.
n how long b4 it becomes
so long now~*

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Tuesday, March 8 | 9:56 pm

yes girlfrens.

hitch
next wednesday
evening or nyt?
wer?


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| 9:16 pm

it was nvr a game for me.
dun treat it like a game.
iv got no time for stupid lil games.

yu said yu wud.

i'v got my karma.
congratulations.
happy now?

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Monday, March 7 | 11:57 pm

Cutting through the darkest night
In my two headlights
I'm trying to keep it clear
But I'm losing it here
To the twilight
There's a dead end to my left
There's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight
You aren't in sight

Do you want me
Like I want you?

Chorus
Or am I standing still?
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am I standing still?
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still?
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you that passed me by?

Mothers on a stoop
Boys in souped-up coupes
On this hot summer night
Between fight and flight
Is the blind man's sight
And the choice that's right
I roll the window down
Feels like I'm gonna drown
In this strange town
I feel broken down
I feel broken down

Do you need me
Like I need you?

Chorus

Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Do you love me
Like I love you?

Chorus

Oh, you're passing me by
Passing me by
Do you need me like I need you to?
Do you want me like I want you?
Or are you passing me by?
Or am I standing still?

- Standing Still, Jewel

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| 12:58 am

i feel alone.
i feel very alone.

i hv all these pple these darlings n so much love ard me.
but why do i stil feel lonely.

ders sthg missing.

i dun wanna go away anymore.
i dun wanna go no king's no sep.

i dun wanna feel more alone den i alredi do.

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Sunday, March 6 | 11:13 pm

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

- Bizarre Love Triangle, Jewel

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| 5:42 pm

haiish :) went to makcik timah's kerja kawin w nyd farah n a fren of farah's *who wantd to witnes a malay wedding* :) hv to say dat it was a real pleasure seeing cik timah again :) n yes i know altho it was her son's wedding n she was probly real excited n alredi real hapi n all.. i cant help but feel dat we made it dat much happier for her :) she, pakcik n even adik greetd us w pleasantly surprised faces n open arms :) she huggd n kissd *yes she did :)* each one of us in turn n gosh :) it felt good to know dat yu cud mean dat much to someone yu had such brief yet intimate contact w :)

cik timah is de rj malay stall auntie :) breaks were a blast bcos we alws had her to talk to n to whine to. nyd wil get her obligatory kangkong while i wil decide which lauk i felt like hving dat day. *we rarely eat rice ;)* usuali went like
yani -hi cik! cik harini ader aper?-
cik timah -hiIii! *singsong voice *no kidding! reali!!* nasi ayam ader lontong ader.. yani nak aper?-
yani -aaa...*ponders* i tak tahu aper nak makan lah ciik..-
nyd -cik mintak kangkong cik!-
cik timah -awak memang minah kangkong cik! sampai mater pun hijau! *green contacts at dat tym*
wen we ask how much our food costs.. she goes
-dahlah yu all anak-anak cik.. cik kasi one-fifty suda.. tapi yu all jgn bilangbilang budak lain eh.. *smile*-
yeshree :) *huugs* miss yu miss yu miss yu cik timah. rj days were dat much more bearable bcos yu were alws der for us :)

once i went back last yr aftr As to get some official documnts signd by teachers n stuf so i paid her a visit. she wantd gimme free food to eat but i jus dint feel like it. instead i jus stood at her stall n talkd. jus talkd n talkd n talkd to her. she askd how dis was doing how dat was doing how life is how who is n wer who is going.. :) i tell yu i came dwn at like noon n left at three. :) pple came n bought n ate n left. pple had deir breaks n deir lectrs n break again. it reali dint feel dat long. time jus flew. cik timah is so utterly sweet. she's alws thinking abt all her anak-anak at rj. she said wen she read abt top students in de papers *like asri sha nyd* she felt so bangga so proud so hapi. as she talkd to me she actuali teard saying how she tumpang gembira anak melayu berjaya and how she's so lucky n blessd to hv met all these kids n how we r alws in her doa. :') how she feels dat altho we r not her students in a teacher-student style relationship she wil show de papers to her relatives n tell dem how dey r her students. *huugs*

i get warm n fuzzy all ovr wen i think abt how much love she has for us n how much she cares for us. i cud see it jus now too. :) de look on her face wen she saw dat we came. n how wen we were jus eating she came up behind me n nyd jus to give us a hug frm de back. :) n sadly i cud also tell how much us students mean to her wen she askd wethr sha knew. wethr dianah knew. wethr we told dem or not. we did n dey know. but how do we tell her dey werent coming. :(

it feels amazing feels so good i feel so indescribably blessd that our relationship w cik timah cud run dis deep. :) i mean aside frm farah who gives her daughtr tuition n so somewat knows de whole family. i gues we also hv farah to thank for dat :) i mean farah hving gotten much closer to cik timah essentially brought de rest of us closer to her too. so for dat thank yu farah dear. *hugs*

insyaallah cik timah. we wil alws be yur anak-anak. *hugg* :)
semoga cik panjang umur n dirahmati Allah swt. amin.

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Friday, March 4 | 10:44 pm

had biodiversity lab today. rOcKiin maan! ahaaak.
biodee wat so must study all animals n deir characteristics.

perfect stage for fear factor.
ten stations in all showing all de different phyla of kingdom animalia. ;)
one station got worms. roundworms flatworms tapeworms segmented worms. phylum platylhelminthes. how many worms yu can eat in 30 secs.
next station got spiders. phylum arthropoda. how long yu can hold a tarantula in yur mouth.
ahaak.

budden station aftr dat fear factor vanishd n its place came restu seafood restaurant.
seriously.
monstrous tiger prawn on display. dat wud make yuMmy butter prawn. *oOh!*
giantgiant crab. chiLLi craab. mMm.
squid. yummy baby squid.
stingray. ikan pari bakar.
der was sea cucumber too for chinese cuisine lovers.
oh baby shark too. for shark's fin soup. ehehk.

onli thg was. de specimens hv been dead for godknows how many yrs. ahaak. preservd.

i came for lab wout lunch okay.
so forgive me.

;) *griin*

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| 2:47 am

how do i tell yu
dat iv been missing yu

how do i tell yu
dat iv been wanting to hear from yu
how do i tell yu
how hapi i m dat yu'r fine n safe n sound


how do i tell yu
dat iv been thinking of yu
how do i tell yu
how yu'r de last thg on my mind before i go to bed

how do i tell yu
aftr all iv put yu thru.

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| 1:46 am

mMm! :) jus got cleand up n smellin good! mugd my evening at arts todayy :) w my faverit baabes! walkd back to pgp past midnyt w aisyah n zat! de cool nyt air. de velvety blackness of de forestd area ard us. de not so silent silence of de nyt. de buzzing of de crickets. de familiar nyt sights of campus life. whee niice. :)

okaays back to mugging.
ahaaks.

nvr procastinate. one nyt of procastination dis week. cos i thot im pretty free hey why not. yu know? not. nxt day windfall of werkk. w my sep application ah de blOody uni wants dis wants dat. eerk. heh but got dat doone. me werkd me magiic! :)

tmro As results. oOh! loads i know getting de biig news tmro. de one dat truly determines yur future. *cos determines which degree yu go for n which degree yu go for largely affects yur future career* okaaylah but life is nvr predictable. yups.
goOd LucK boys n giirls!
a couplea girlfrens' boyfrens getting de slip tmro toO.
*huugs* to nyd n shiq :) all de best for yur sakes toO babes ;)

okaays bye all~*

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Wednesday, March 2 | 2:35 am

i don't know why you're so far away
but i know that this much is true
we'll make it through
and i hope you are the one i share my life with
and i wish that you could be the one i die with
and i'm praying you're the one i build my home with
i hope i love you all my life

i don't wanna run away but i can't take it, i don't understand
if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am?
is there any way that i can stay in your arms?

- If You're Not The One, Daniel Beddingfield

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hehe ;)
so sue me.
wat m i doing?
making my blOg prettyprettyy.
instead of?
reading up.
whOopSiiE.
ahaaks. =P

yayy! :) so yu like it?
no? toO badD. I dO! :D
yes? yayyie! thankyu! :)

actuali im supposd to be writing dis essay for duo-singapore fellowship. major eErgh. tell me how yu write an impressive essay telling dem how much yu want dem to give yu cold, hard cash. its semi-funding for sep w no strings attachd. jus cold, hard cash each mth. i cant evn act all enthusiastic abt how i wanna b a part of deir organisation.. bcos ders no such thg! no sTrIngS aTTaChed. so exactly wat do i say. hELp!

wel. i m supposd to be reading my biodee too. but dats okaay. ders alws tmro morning.
ahaaks. procrastination.
nvr did anybody any good. nuhuh.

yes. i myt be going sep next sem instead of next yr. here's why.
for my course der r several compulsory modules that i hv to fulfill. n most of de lower level modules r prerequisites for de highr ones. ie. if i dun do level 2 mods i cant do my level 3 ones in yr 3.
now here's de thg. de bio mods at king's that r equivalent to nus's r onli offrd dis coming sem, n not de sem i was scheduld to go. i cud take de chance jus going blindly hoping n praying dey myt miraculously open a small class for dat module wen i go der next sem. but shd dat not happn. i wud b majorly scrwd. bcos wen i come back aftr dat it'l b my yr three. n not hving done those modules ovr der i cant do my yr three mods. n yu put two n two togethr dat wud mean delayd graduation. no way.
okie mars? *huuGs* i hope yu undrstnd babe. :( i know its not a fabulous arrangemnt. *huUgs* i wish it cud be helpd.
BUT as of now. its stil tentative. i stil hv to race against time to get all my documnts submittd. i was given a grand total of two days notification dat i hvta submit all sorts of docs if i wanna change sep sem to next sem. aiiks.
watch me do some magic.

i undrstand dear marsie's position. once again. sistas separatd. jc was like dat. a fren once commented on our pae postings aftr prelims.
-eh yu all funny eh. wen all of yu can actuali go one school y yu all go diffrnt places?-
it looks like its coming to dat again.
new zealand.
australia.
singapore.
united kingdom.
four continents. tens of thousands of miles away.
but we'l alws be der for each othr. like we alws are. *smile*
*hugs* i love yu dears.

oh o lvl results r out. :)
cOngRatS~*! to those who did exceptionally well.
n to yu- iM pRoUd of yU! :) alws knew yu had it in yu! :) yu gO gErL! ;)-
n to those who weren't too hapi.
dUn wOri. its NoT de eNd Of dE wOrLd. faR frOm iT.
trust me. der's loads more to life. n loadsa ways dat yu can make up for it. :)

meanwhile.
evryone else.
eNjoY! :)


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