Monday, February 27 | 1:38 am

have you ever felt like life is unfair? but you were not on the side of the unfair?

the eerily familiar white.
the same haunting looks.
the same tears.
the same people.

the deja vu.

and i hope you know that i'm right here. for you.

it's a tragedy for everyone and anyone involved.
but the tragic magnitude amplifies when it happens to such a close-knit institution. again.

i know it's His decision and at His discretion. tawakaltu'allallah.
but try as you might, the pain can't disappear, and the wound will still take time to heal.

and tonight, i witnessed the sheerest of strengths from the unlikeliest of them.
such strength emanating from that small petite frame, and that calming look that just washes serenity over her surroundings.
i can't even begin to imagine how much strength and more importantly, love it takes to remain calm and composed in her shoes.

may he pass on in peace, may the loved ones stay strong, you're all that he has to lighten his burden from here on insya'allah.

innalillahwainna'illahhiraji'un.

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Sunday, February 26 | 4:55 am

met mars earlier, and then met the rest of the girls at maulana. this was when we were waiting for the rest to be done! :)

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| 4:47 am

oh how we entertain ourselves. i swear we were SO cracked up looking at these pictures right after we took them.

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| 4:42 am

rozzie treated us aaaall at ziqin's(who is also talif, for those of you who don't know) restaurant! pagi sore @ far east square. the food is suuuuperb. the rice is so nicely wrapped, mmm! i looove the fish. umm dunno what it's called, but black colour one. haha. thank youuu rozzie daarlin! :) *muah!*

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| 4:39 am

befooore the food.

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| 4:36 am

after the food!

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| 4:05 am

with fizaaa! i miss the other harun sister!!

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| 3:54 am

our convoy! so fun! a car to fit every type! there was ziqin's garang SUV, rozzie's glorious beemer, huzer's vintage beetle and hatta's flashy integra!

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| 3:51 am

closer look at the beemer?

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| 3:26 am

the oh-so-familiar integra and beetle. ;)

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| 3:20 am

classic! huzer running for the beemer door, shah turning in time to see him and protect the car, and hatta on the way to um, help? but help who, i wonder.

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| 3:18 am

follow that car!

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| 3:11 am

the private party. we were lucky enough to be the only two in the car! ;)

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| 3:07 am

huzer sibokk onlii.

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| 2:48 am


now that's more like it. :)

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| 2:45 am


walking from cars to a place to chill. :) hepi betul eh budakbudak niiii.

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| 2:41 am


i loove my sistadarliiings! im gonna miiisss rozzieeeeee. i waaan go peerth rozzieee!!

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| 2:40 am


shix(bukan farah tau, shiX ok.) and yaaaanii. :D and el sheikh's red walls!

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| 2:40 am


:)

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| 2:39 am


i looooove farah. :D she's not pushing me away is she? ;) rozzie jealous?? kheheehe.

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| 2:38 am


wat a cosycosy pikchheerr i think. :)

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| 2:36 am


niiiicey. :) el sheikh rocks! couches, pillows, red walls and all!

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| 2:33 am


*GRIIIN* yani likes to sibok in otherbody's pikchheeeers. :D

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| 2:32 am


the other el sheikh pictures! mm didn't get any of khai and akmal though. oh wells. all in all, guuts nyt! frens and frens of frens of frens. ;)

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Thursday, February 23 | 10:15 pm


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| 9:37 pm

you know when you've had something for so long you've just always had it and then you suddenly lose it like almost all of a sudden it's slipped out of your grasp and you are at such a loss and you really need to talk to someone about it but you can't really talk to anyone about it because firstly nobody's going to believe you because it just seems so unreal that you could lose it in the first place and secondly you don't really want to admit that you've lost it either.

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Sunday, February 19 | 2:14 pm

as much as i'd like my italy pictures to remain prominently on my blog, i have a rather important announcement to make. :D

in light of the upcoming A level results (ok not a very welcoming opening line, i know.)
mendaki has released several scholarship application forms.
strangely though, i never received it when i was awaiting results. however, NOW they give it to me, so i shall pass it on. ok? :)

one of the scholarship-bursaries is very important. it is the special malay bursary.
i believe this is our right as the indigenous people. back then, we(malays) were promised free education, because this country was not able to grant us land(as they do for the indigenous people). this bursary pays full tuition fees, and on top of that, it gives a yearly living allowance of a considerable amount. however, we should never take without giving back. so there is a condition. each recipient has to complete approximately 1200 hours of community service. fret not, you have up to 5 years after graduation to do so. apart from this, there are no other strings attached.

ok so why am i putting this on my blog?
because two years back, it was rather difficult to obtain an application form for this bursary. it wasn't on the website, and if you go to mendaki and you ask for any tertiary tuition fee bursary, they'll simply hand you the tertiary tuition fee loan. which is NOT what we deserve as indigenous people. the only reason we got it was because we knew about it beforehand, and we had to specifically ask "can i have the special malay bursary form?", THEN they handed us the right form. :(

so i have 3 scholarship application forms from mendaki (i'm still pondering as to why they sent it to me. hell i'm ALREADY under a bursary with them.). and if you're interested in them, leave your email address either on my tagboard or drop me an email at erlyani@hotmail.com, and i'll forward them to you. ok? :)

oh and. do my johari's window can? ;)
http://kevan.org/johari?name=erlyani
tenkskiuk!

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| 4:05 am

umm. so instead of sleeping right.
this is what i have been up to.

my last trip in europe.
italy: pisa, lucca, florence and venice.
with darlings khairiah and lina.

enjoy the pictures!
italy is gorgeous. so, so gorgeous. :)

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| 4:04 am


pisa welcomes you!

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| 4:01 am


my babes :) lina and khairiah. my italian bellas. ;)

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| 3:57 am


aack! ;)

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| 3:56 am


the girls with the leaning tower of pisa~*

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| 3:56 am


at the foot of the tower~*

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| 3:55 am


that's the extent of the inclination of the tower.

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| 3:53 am


climbing the tower..

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| 3:47 am


the tiny stairwell leading up, up, up! but i don't think it beats the utterly claustrophobic stairs leading up the st peters' dome at the vatican. *shudders*

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| 3:45 am


bell(e)s! hehehhe.

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| 3:45 am


check out the snow-capped peaks in the distance. is that tourino? i wanna see ALL of italy!

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| 3:44 am


atop the tower!

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| 3:43 am


helloooo lucca.

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| 3:42 am


so. this is what we did in lucca. ;)

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| 3:40 am


(the bus we took from pisa to lucca, and then back to pisa. lucca was a day trip.) pisa was greeeaat!

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| 3:39 am


and we set off for florence now..

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| 3:37 am


uffizi! (i think.)

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| 3:36 am


eerh, some old significant church?

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| 3:35 am


aaaand the leather market! SHOP!

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| 3:31 am


on the bus going up some hill (sadly, i forgot the name!) to see the bronze copy of david. the originial marble one is in the accademia? some museum ok, name forgot. :P

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| 3:31 am


the view atop the hill, whoooots.

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| 3:29 am


we came to see david!

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| 3:27 am


wider shot, in sepia.

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| 3:26 am


my favourite! so full of meaning, the thoughtful expression on the face, the background.. ;) (action onlyyy.)

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| 3:25 am


ponte vecchio. the famous bridge in florence? heh.

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| 3:24 am


on ponte vecchio~*

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| 3:22 am


this is one of my favourite sculptures. unlike other sculptures, it does NOT have one point of viewing. it can be viewed from every direction and angle. i think a female is being kidnapped by some baddie here, and the hero trying to save her. forgot their names. heh. i think it's called the rape of sthg. but don't quote me on that. ;P

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