| world at my feet |

give me something to believe in
cause i don't believe in you
anymore, anymore
i wonder if it even makes a difference to try

so this is goodbye.

and then i cried.

but it felt good. i talked it out with a few people tonight. most helped me get perspective.

zat says i haven't reached the extent of bidding goodbye. so that's good.
mars says it's cause i see people around me moving on. and i feel like i'm stuck in limbo.
rozzie says at least for now, you know it's something you gotta do - so suck it up and do it. face the reality; that helps you get by better, i guess.

i hope i didn't quote wrongly. but see, i love my people. these are my people. and i love my people.

you know how on Grey's meredith is christina's person and christina is meredith's person? well i'm wayy luckier than both of them put together. i have people.

i'm going through something; i just don't know what.

you know how sometimes on that road, you meet with the occasional humps that you need to get over?

mine's a wall.

and then it goes
and it really makes me wonder
if i ever gave a fuck about you

stop. i always gave more than a fuck. so why now, why now i demand to know.

fine i confess.

i have been playing computer games. that's why this blog is getting dusty and look at that, cobwebs!

it's a really old game though, used to play it back when the A's were just over. it's hatta's actually, and my brother decided to ask him for it again. and thus, i too was hooked.

running a city, watching it grow from one stage of civilization to the next.. how not to be enthralled!

so while i gather myself and ready this body to see the world again, allow me to whet your appetite a little.

signature bread pudding.

crepe suzette.

fondant de chocolat chaud.

no i did not memorize the names. i looked them up.

but first. guess where from!

Bistro Delifrance, can you believe it??

looking through those lenses, everything tantalizes!

shall i not, allow myself to feel even the littlest bit of cleverness on my part? allow me, sire, for i may never feel this way again.

wow, where did thaat come from.

so anyway, here says Bistro Delifrance about them yummies, followed by of course the all-important consumer's opinion.

Signature Bread Pudding Deliciously moist bread pudding, served with vanilla sauce & a scoop of vanilla ice-cream.
my take: bread pudding was beyond moist - to the point of soggy. not too good. but tasty, definitely good to the tastebuds. the cinnamon flavour kicked it up a notch, although personally, cinnamon is incomplete without the raisins!

Crepe Suzette Hot crepe with caramelized apple wedges in an orange and butter sauce, served with a scoop of vanilla ice-cream.
my take: this, it looked better than it tasted. and it didn't even look very pretty in the first place. the crepe was drowned, and so couldn't get much out of it. but the caramelized apples in orange and butter sauce.. now thaat was a dreaam! in fact, we couldn't figure out if the little brown pieces were apples or oranges. i was pretty confident they were apples, i mean i've never come across caramelized oranges.. but the orange flavour was undeniable! turns out, we were all right. :D

Fondant de Chocolat Chaud Unbelievably moist chocolate cake oozing with fudge, served with vanilla ice-cream
my take: take their word for it - unbelievable it was. mmm MMM! and the oozing fudge! buay tahan ah! i was pleasantly surprised by the fudge. (obviously i didn't pay attention to the menu.) and the cake.. you know how some cakes make you feel a little queasy after a few bites? the malays call it muak. but this one.. totally NOT! i'd have to say this was the best one up there, and as soon as the boyfriend comes back - i'm heading back for this baby.

but you know what i like best? the mint leaves on the ice-cream! :D the perfect accent for my shots, wouldn't you agree? ;)

eh dahlah, wahlau. free publicity sia.

we cleaned those plates!

no actually, i did. the rest playcheat. pick here, pick there.. greaaat, leave yani to sweep everything into her stomach, why don't you.

here, some of the people i love.

on a side note, HAPPY 22nd SWEETIE!
dah big girl, you know.

one more time - HAPPY 22nd! that's for nydia.
oh yah, again - HAPPY 22nd ELLY!

whew. did i leave anyone out?

i feel uninspired.

had wanted to blog about stuff i've been up to since the kuching trip..
trip to US embassy was definitely an experience to share. the few that i did share with should consider themselves lucky. some of the things i saw in there were almost atrocious, really. sigh, amer/icans.
been cycling with marsie dear a couple of times. nice leisure time. followed by some girlfriend lovin'. oh, and east coast is so much nicer on a weekday afternoon. mars, again?

the inertia i'm facing trying to get started on the Hons project is tremendous.

it's like i almost don't want to do it.

i am secretly jealous of people who are graduating. there, said it.

and, stagnate being a verb.. i find that ironic.

i went to see pirates' at world's end today! with is, la and mars! (: (:

who doesn't love jack sparrow? i love i love! johnny depp is hott! (: (: (:

the story's alright, but i liked dead man's chest better. it wasn't as funny. and started to get just a teeny bit incredible. i could become captain too, i bet. haha. and i soo don't like will turner. or orlando bloom. or orlando bloom as will turner. bahh.

but who cares. i am so watching the next installment - for cap'n jack sparrow o'course. :D

i liike when friends meet friends. my friends are awesome people, so most times - it's a hit!
wait have i said this before?

have a bunch of photos.. but until i get through the rest of kuching photos (yes even if it kills me, i'm gonna do it. unlike mars - she quit!), all other events shall be put on hold.

i like to chronicle my life, see. great fun to look back one day. hopefully. blogger you better not die and eat up my entries during my lifetime.

meanwhile, here are some more of kuching!

it was heartbreaking to leave the baruk suite and damai beach, but i was pretty happy with the memories i had tucked away safely in the deepest recesses of my mind. plus, in a place as special as that, staying too long would kill it. i didn't want to have a moment where i was bored, or felt cramped. looking back, i realise it was just the perfect amount of time we spent there.

mr. khalid picked us up and we went in search of a place which would have us for lunch. the first two seafood restaurants were closed! well, a lesson i had long learnt from holidays with my parents, but somehow i thought east malaysia would be the exception. plus, i figured mr. khalid would know better right?

we finally found Romlah's Orchid Garden (hey, isn't that the hotel's coffeehouse?). but this was literally an eating place set within an orchid garden. maintained by Romlah herself, of course. sheltered away from sweltering heat by the hanging orchids, not to mentioned hidden from the raging outside world, this place was a little haven!

missynadz's favourite - nasi goreng kerabu.
can't recall if this was the perlis or kelantan.

my kway teow tomato, apparently a significant sarawak dish.

see the many greens around?

siigh. someone picking through her food. no veg no veg!

we got back to kuching city centre rather late that afternoon. just enough time to get me shoes and a faaab dinner. :D

i bought the black (left) and had to sadly toss the brown (right).

dinner was a yummy affair, as always! that night, it was coca restaurant!

steamboat!

tricked mars into believing we were having ginseng chicken and herbal tonic. hah!

only part of the spread. we had like.. close to 20 dishes! just count the plates!
and this was without mr. khalid there. he would have ordered more for us to try, according to nadiah.

dig in!

green noodles.

yellow rice.

hard to say which i liked more! both were yummyyummy!

what's after dinner, girls?

dessert! off to bing's we trooped, arms linked - for fear of bad people who might grab us/our bags.

bing's is this wonderfully modern joint with.. cakes and coffee and ice blendeds and smoothies and totally meant for us! (: (:

the ambience was totally perfect; comfy couches and throw pillows, dim lighting, loads of youngsters and just the right volume of music, a notch below the chatter. too loud would require yelling!

dig the atmosphere?

mars bar cheesecake!
like chunky chewy pieces of mars bars IN the cheesecake!
explosion of YUMM in your mouth to say the least!

strawberry smoothie.
the bits of jam-like strawberries were a dream! more kick to the drink, i say. (:

tiramisu. a bigger dream.

the cheesecake disappeared in two minutes - we could not control ourselves! (this was after that steamboat, mind you.)
so nadz and i went back to the counter to select another cake. we are greedy girls. but the cakes were waayy yummy, can't blame us!
and this tiramisu? like have i ever tasted such light tiramisu? neveerr.
i wanted more! but that would just have been too greedy. hehhz.

all gone! we polished it off.

hard to remember that, beyond those glass panels, was malaysia. ;)

LAST DAY.

our return flight wasn't until 7pm that evening. so the day was spent picking up last minute souvenirs.

what else, but tikar sarawak!
for marsie's mummy.

the ladies choosing and picking their way.
where was i?

perched on a stool!

pretty soon, nadz came to join me in my stoning.

aaand the very nice mr shopkeeper wraps it up!

that afternoon, we had Hartz chicken buffet. which i have to say, i didn't take to very nicely. i think my stomach was full of gunk from the many huuuge dinners from the nights before. i did enjoy Hartz's pasta and chicken pot pie though. and of course, the sweet desserts - the crunchy cobbler with peach and apples was it? and of course, bread and butter pudding. hehhz. i am a suckerr for sugar. no photos. clearly that day, i wasn't in the mood. -_-

aand we set for home. (:

not bad okayy, we returned from a last minute spree at vincci's (newly opened SALE!) with 20 minutes to spare. and so we threw everything in the bags, sat and squuezed the bags shut, snapped them locks and hauled them out the door. (well, thank you uncle bellhop.)

as with all holidays, how can bags not multiply right? it's spontaneous regeneration!

thank you, my dears. i shall truly cherish. (:

and of course, thank you kuching!
p.s. i prefer you to west malaysia.

THE END. (for real now)

see the houses atop the hill?
we stayed at the baruk suites, which were up there on the hill.
but those aren't the baruk suites. those i think are the kampung melayu suites. sthg like that.
in the foreground, that's the public pool!

our baruk suite - 'Pipit'!

two beds!
it was a gorgeousgorgeous room. i would kill to have it for the honeymoon.
BUT. since i've been here, the husband will have to find another place for the honeymoon! hehhz.

there was a sitting area.
it's the first thing you open the door to. the entrance is on the left of this photo.
it was a circular room, in case you can't already tell.

as you walk from the living area, you see this.

the bed faces the verandah! like whoots!

the morning we were there, as usual our alarms were set for 7am (or sthg), and i actually woke up. i just had to take in the morning scene.

so i went out onto the verandah and breathed in the morning air. it was.. serene. and i let it all wash over me. (: the cool morning air, the sound of the waves and the crickets.

then, i went back inside, drew the curtains open.. and went right back to bed. anak dara PEMALAS!

but i did that for a reason! so that when we next woke up (which was like noon), my girls and i would awake to such a lovely view! ;) nice riight!

okay enough talk about the view. here it is:

panning from the left..

the horizon in the middle.

and the breathtaking mountains and sea on the right.

gaahh! i'm like salivating now, aching to go back there!!

but god knows - how to go back to baruk suite! need many many moneyy! :P

gee, yani. ;)

to top it all off, there was a private pool!
for the hilltop suites. :D
so it was like only us and a bunch of mat-salleh couples!

we went crazy with the sunblock and/or tanning lotion.. the shades, the storybooks, the sunshine.. this was the one time we weren't complaining about the sun's strong rays! ;) we were soaking it all in! and i have to say.. the rays were very strong that day. whee!

nope, no photos from poolside gonna be up here.

just one, and try not to look too hard.
i was totally in the moment. ;)

the end. whee!